The Truth is Coming Out....

I am writing this blog tonight to let the fact be known that I am

HAPPY!!!!

There is noone out there that is going to make me feel any different!!!

NOONE!!!

I have spent most of my life trying to make everyone around me happy and that is just not going to happen

ANYMORE!!!

There are things that I am not good at...

lots of things that I am not good at actually...

One of those "things" that I am No good at is telling someone how I truly feel...

So in a nut shell, this blog is about to tell everyone...

No one person in particular...

this is for everyone....

this is how I feel...

and if that bothers someone...

To bad...I've spent my life listening to everyone around me

talk about how miserable they are, and how life is just not going right for them..

GET OVER IT!!!!!

You should be thankful for the things you have!!! There is someone out there right now who would give anything just to have what you have!!!

You have a bed to sleep in,

You have a roof over your head,

You have a job,

You have a family that loves you,

You have a mom,

You have a Dad,

You have a best friend,

You have a warm shower,

You have water,

You have food,

You have a toilet,

You have all your limbs,

STOP COMPLAINING!!!!!!!!!

STOP POUTING!!!!!!!!!

If your not happy with who you are or where you are,

you are the only one who can do anything about it!!!

I thrive off of people who don't depend on others for their happiness,

I thrive on encouraging people to be more than what they think they can be...

I Love when i am encouraged to do something I think that I can't...

and I live for challenges...I dare you to tell me I cannot do something...

I will prove you wrong EVERYTIME!!!!

I've had my faults, I've had my bad days...hell I've had bad years...

we all have, but I will not judge you on something that is in your past...

because it's in your past!!!! DON"T JUDGE ME!!!!!!!!

If there is something you want to say to me than say it,

But STOP making me feel like an outcast!!!

I wouldn't change anything in my past...Because I wouldn't be the person I am today if I did!!!

I can take criticism,

but there is one critism i'm tired of getting,

NEGATIVE about how I am raising my children, or how I take care of my children!!!

I'm done with it!!!

If you don't like the way I care for MY children then go complain about it to someone else...

They are MY children, I spend everyday with them and you don't...

You can not judge how I do things when you are not here to see what happens, or the how things go from one day to the next. To judge on ONE day or to judge on a trip away from comfort...is not a fair way to judge!!!! You have to put ALL the ingredients into the pot before the soup is done...you can't judge until you've tasted it all....

I mean no disrespect as I am writing how I feel, I'm at a breaking point...

I am Happy!!!!

I am HAPPY!!!!

I am HAPPY!!!!

And there is no one who is going to bring me down!!!!!

I have cried,

I have screamed,

I have vented,

I have thought,

and thought,

and thought...

and i'm finally done.

I am HAPPY!!!!

And if you don't like ME for ME...then that is your loss...

I have been walked ALL over by friends in my past...

This would be why I dont' have many...

I REFUSE to be walked on by family...

I have tried for years...

bending over backwards to accomodate those around me...

make it easy for those around me....

and in return I have always gotten the short end of the straw...

I"M DONE!!!

If you want to see me, or you want to see my family...

YOU can make the arrangements...I'm home all the time...

I don't work....I don't go to school...

I am waking up everyday to a

WONDERFULLY HAPPY life...

and if you want to join in...

I'd love to have you!!!

But don't expect me to bend over backwards for

ANYONE

ANYMORE!!!!

So, as I see no other way to end this...

I LOVE you all,

but right now,

I am EXTRMEMLY disappointed.

"I value the person who for me finds time on his calendar,

but I cherish the person who for me does not consult his calendar."

~Robert Brault